Day 10

It's 10:30 A.M, Wednesday morning and I'm wide awake. Work is terribly boring and although I am wide awake I can't help but close my eyes and dream about my fluffy pillow. If only I could really do that.


But instead, I'm wishing it was 3:30 so I could go home and do Pilates and Taebo. It's been taking over my thoughts, that and losing weight. There's nothing I want more than to be skinnier. That's bad for me to say, isn't it?? Unfortunately, it's how I feel and I can't ignore my feelings and those thoughts. I have a long way to go until I am down to the weight that I want to be. I'm doing this for myself, to feel beautiful. Inside and OUT! I'm being safe and healthy! This is going to be a long journey but I'm in it for the long run.


Today is day 10 of my diet. Things have been getting...better. I've lost 6 lbs and although no one can really notice...I notice. Doing Pilates has made my abs harder and stronger and Pilates is starting to get easier. It's definitely not a piece of cake nor will I ever expect it to be. Taebo is still kicking my butt but I have so much fun doing it! I made Justin leave the living room on Monday because I didn't want him to look at me like an idiot. I litterly looked like a fish. I didn't know any of the moves therefore I was jumping around, arms and legs wiggling everywhere and I was embarrassed...we've been together for 2 years now and there are certain things that I am still embarrassed to do in front of him...like workout...
On Tuesday, instead of asking him to leave the living room, he decided to do Taebo with me!! Yay for workout buddies :] Plus, that way he couldn't make fun of me because he was too busy watching the Taebo moves on the T.V. screen.


Speaking of workout buddy, I miss my best friend Laura. I hardly see her that much anymore because we both have jobs and other things going on in our lives. But I never forget to tell her that I love her or that I miss her! She knows it. I told her that I 'hit a bump' as in my weight, her awesome response, "don't lose too much weight or you'll lose your pretty curves." That girl can always make me smile, even when she's not trying.

"You're the French to my Fry"

Time for me to get back to work.

xo.

Jessica