Re-lactation Update

It's been months since I've done a re-lactation post and it's been FIVE months since I've started this process/journey. And let me just tell ya, this has been the best decision I have made for myself and for my daughter.

I'm so incredibly proud of myself for even going this long because I have had a lot of ups and downs. I've dealt with an incredible amount of loneliness due to constantly being hooked up to my pump. I've felt like a horrible mother for pumping instead of playing with my daughter and no mother should ever feel like that but...it happens. I've dealt with pumping too much milk {40+ ounces} to pumping not enough milk.

But I was always able get through it, and those hard times made me really realize how much I loved giving my daughter breast milk and made me realize that I want to try and go until she is 1. Sometimes, I think I'm crazy for wanting to go that long pumping but I'm just not ready to give it up and I really want to try and stay off of formula.

Where I am at now: Things are rough right now. I am almost out of domperidone and won't receive my next stash for another 2 weeks and my supply is slowly dropping. I'm trying to pump as much as possible but there is only so much pumping I can do before I want to run the thing over. I'm kind of kicking myself in the arse right now because just a week ago, I was dumping milk because I had absolutely no where to store it. Stupid mistake on my part. It does helps immensely that Laila drinks water, juice and is also on solid foods. If I didn't have those three things, I would have to give her formula. I'll get through it, I know I will!