Body Issues

I'm in such a crappy mood with my weight. I hate the number I see on the scale, I hate the way my body looks. I feel unhealthy and disgusting. There is no such thing as confidence in my world, that all went out the window. And I don't blame it on pregnancy at all. It was my choice to eat the foods I did, to sit on my arse and be lazy.

Ya, I would diet and workout for a while but then all motivation disappeared. I was tired of working out and restricting myself. yada yada yada. But now, I regret it all because I feel like a big pile of mush. I have no self control, I don't know correctly, what's good and bad. Yes, eat veggies, fruits, and lean meats instead of sweets. I know that.

Currently, I have P90X, Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shread, and Jillian Michaels No More Trouble Zones.

Tell me, what are your favorite healthy recipes, workouts, tips, motivational stuff? I could use all the help.

Good thing Pinterest is amazing!


Here are some of my motivational pins

Source: losing30lbsincollege.tumblr.com via Jessica on Pinterest

Source: noskinnybitcheshere.tumblr.com via Jessica on Pinterest

Source: get-thinspiration.tumblr.com via Jessica on Pinterest

Source: None via Jessica on Pinterest

I'm hoping I will have the strength, the courage, to actually get where I want to be.

i am beautiful

Christa over at Young & Restless is doing a link-up. We have to write about the things we love about ourselves instead of the negative. And her post really hit me hard because I've struggled with my weight for years and to this day, I still struggle and can't help but criticize every thing about me. But, it's time to stop that and be proud of what I look like {even if I have a thunder thighs, cellulite, armpit/boob fat} We really need to love who we are. So this link-up is amazing!






now on to the things I love about myself...

I love my eyes, I find them absolutely gorgeous

Weird one...but I love my feet

I love my smile, always have always will

Along with my smile, I love my teeth! I just wish they were whiter.

Most days I love my hair but there are some days that I absolutely hate it. We can't always have good hair days.

I love my drive to succeed and be successful.

I love the child that is still in me, growing up sometimes suck.

I love my ability to love people and how much I can truly love someone, like my daughter. I've never known a love so strong.

I love my laugh and the little snort that makes it's way out every once in a while.

I know that there are other things out there that I do love about myself, I'm just having a hard time with this...because I'm so use to being a downer about myself and a lot of it has to do with image than personality.

please do link-up!

Weight Watchers

Since I was a teenager, I remember always having issues with my body. I always had love handles, a large chest and the extra fat hanging onto my stomach.

And I struggled every.single.day.

I struggled with people calling me fat, or saying I had fake boobs. I hid in clothes way too large because I was uncomfortable in my own skin.

I would constantly weigh myself. Sometimes even every 5 minutes. I was incredibly disgusted with myself.

I dieted the unhealthy way. I wouldn't eat or if I did eat, it wouldn't stay in my stomach for long.

I couldn't get myself to stop and I tried, I tried hard to change my ways. To diet the healthy way and exercise but I just couldn't.

Eventually I got help, 6 months worth of help. And It worked but every since I had a child my body hasn't been the same.

But this time around, I want to do it the healthy way. And I made a decision to join Weight Watchers. The first week was amazing, I lose about 2 pounds. But weeks 2 and 3 were hell.

I failed. And failed again. And I was ready to give up.

But I'm starting over again because losing 50 pounds and becoming FIT is something I desire.

I even bought P90X and did it ONCE. First time I did it, I pinced a nerve in my back and was left in SO much pain. I could barely care for my child.

But, I want to get back into because I've seen amazing results with this beautiful lady. 

I want to look good for myself and for Justin. And exercising and eating correctly is the right way to go.

Please, wish me luck ladies. I'm sure I'll need it.