May 25, 2010

Kiss FM morning quickie



Every morning on my way to work I listen to 103.7 Kiss FM and I absolutely LOVE their morning quickies. Today's morning quickie was about women and their appearance.

*74 % of women admit they constantly check out their reflection
*Almost every time I walk past a mirror, I will look at myself.

*55 % say they'd never consider having plastic surgery. BUT, of those women, 46 % would think about it if there was no pain and no recovery time.
*I'm really not that big on plastic surgery. Although, IF I had the MONEY, I would definitely get some liposuction...I have lots of giggly fat. :/ But I definitely wouldn't change my major appearance.

*45 % of women say the count calories DAILY, and 35 % go the the gym every day.
*When I had an eating disorder, I CONSTANTLY counted calories and pretty much made sure I barely ate any while still working out a TON. I've gotten past that stage and try not to count them as much as I use to.

*44 % admit they wax "down there." :P
*Ouch, Ouch, Ouch. I've gotten my eyebrows waxed and that hurt. I prefer to shave. lol

*ONE in FOUR women says she'd turn down a date with a guy she likes if she had a zit, was feeling overweight, or hadn't trimmed her downstairs.
*I haven't turned down dates for these reasons.

*But, in spite of all this, just ONE in FIVE women say they feel confident about their body
*Totally true. I am definitely not confident about my body at all. I critique and criticize it like you wouldn't believe. I think my main problem with where this all started was the media. Believe it or not, I use to want Mary-Kates body...when she had anorexia. That's how freaking messed up my mind was and what I use to consider beautiful. I felt that if I had her body (or just a skinny, perfect body), I would have everything! But on my way to getting that so called perfect body, I lost much much more. :[

May 24, 2010

Welcome To Summer!!



Holy Hotness. Welcome to Summer!

It's a little over 80 Degrees in our house and I am dying!! I feel dizzy and lightheaded and that seems to be on of my new pregnancy symptoms. :/ Seems to happen from heat, especially during a shower. I'll become so dizzy and lightheaded that I have to stop what I am doing and call it quits. It's pretty scary and I'm thinking it's only going to get worse with the heat. 

*I love the beach*  

Ugh, and here I sit in the house...on a leather couch with no air conditioning, with only a fan running...and I am so incredibly hottttt. We do have a window unit but we decided to put it into the bedroom for bedtime. I cannot, CANNOT sleep while warm. I sweat and get all sticky and uncomfortable and spend forever lying there in bed. But, last night sleeping was amazing! I was nice and cold and slept perfectly, except for those 3 times I woke up in the middle of the night to pee. Other than that, amazing. :] 
Our neighbor did mention to us that he had a window air conditioner and would let us use it if we would like. I immediately jumped at it and said yes! I wasn't going to pass it up, do you know how much a DECENT, GOOD WORKING one costs. Way too much for me to pay at the moment when I have other things to pay for. I can't wait! I'm such a baby but I just want to feel comfortable and survive being pregnant with the HEAT.

So, this weekend was definitely a good one for me (for the most part)
Saturday, I did lots and lots of cleaning and I feel so much better with a cleaner house. Being in a messy house has really started to get to me, I don't know why. 
I vacuumed (all rooms)
Windexed the windows/mirrors
Dishes
Laundry - loads & loads
Torn down a bookshelf
Installed some corner shelves (well, Justin mainly did that)
Cleaned the toilet/sinks
Cleaned/Organized the Walk-In-Closet
Dusted
Cleaned the fridge
Swept
I at least felt like that was a lot to do but totally worth it and I even enjoyed it. 
*Corner Shelves* :] 
They look better in person
The rest of the Justin and I just relaxed. I did find out that my Grandpa Gene turned 77 and my little cousin Sebastian turned ? (I'm not sure how old he turned) and we missed their parties because know one mentioned anything to either of us until today. I was bummed by this because I didn't get to see my family.

Sunday, was by far the best day, for the most part. Justin and I were invited to our neighbors house for a neighborhood barbecue. Nothing like grilling out and getting some color :D The food was DELICIOUS and everyone was sooo freaking friendly and I am so glad we have neighbors that we all get along with and like. But, before we went over there I showered and was getting all dressed and ready and just looked at myself in the mirror, critiquing every little thing and I started bawling my eyes out. I looked ugly and fat. Not beautiful at all, not even cute. I just was not OK with the way I looked at all. I was ready to stay home and not go anywhere because I was so embarrassed of my body. I didn't feel comfortable. But, I got over it and went and of course I sure did have the best time ever!
After I ate, that ugly feeling came back. One of our neighbors asked if I was full, I just kind of said "ya, kind of." Her daughter said "ya, i sure can tell, your belly is big" and just stared at my belly.
I wanted to cry. I am already feeling fat and self conscious and then I have to hear this remark and it just made me feel even uglier. The only thing that came out of my mouth was "I'm pregnant" and it wasn't a happy way I said it, it was more of a 'I'm going to start crying' way.

Whatever, I got over it and ate more food because I became hungry again.
Dark was approaching soon and everyone was outside sitting down with this white screen hanging on a garage with a projector getting ready to play a movie with some bomb-ass surround sound. It was amazing, like a drive in movie theater. Unfortunately, Justin and I had to go home because we both had to get up EARLY for work the next morning but I sure hope there will be many more days/nights like last night (minus some things) 

Overall, It was such an amazing day and I couldn't ask for it any other way. I had a blast and got some color :]
Oh, I own between 13-15 bras and as of now, I have ONE that fits comfortably. Um, boobs please stop growing.
11 Weeks. Not much

 So, the computer is making me sweat since it's hot...sooo...I think it's time for me to shower.
XOXO.
ME

12 Weeks



How far along? 12 weeks 2 days

Weight gain/loss: Not sure anymore. haven't gotten weighed since my last apt.

Maternity clothes? Beband mostly

Stretch marks? The ones on my boobies are much more noticeable. :[

Sleep? If only I wasn't constantly waking up to go pee, life would be much better

Best moment this week? Neighborhood barbecue. it was awesome
I'll blog about it later. :]

Food cravings? It always changing, fruit

Gender: We find out in july.

Belly button in or out? Still an innie

Movement? Stummy growlings. I've heard about flutters but I don't know what those feel like so it's hard to tell what I am feeling

What I miss? Feeling beautiful.
Major breakdown yesterday, will blog about that later as well.

What I'm looking forward to: Seeing baby!!!

Weekly wisdom: Today I am pregnant and I love my baby!

Milestones: I made it to 12 weeks!!


May 18, 2010

last night, three's



Last night was by far one of the worst nights ever!! I was getting ready for bed, just layed down, turned on some awesome House M.D and my stomach was roaring in hunger. Which is normal, it's pretty much the noise I hear all the time now. And I have learned that once I lay down with a growling stomach it's not going to end well. I was rigghhttt. Say buh-bye prenatal vitamin. :[ And I didn't even attempt to re-take another one. I just ate a bagel and cried myself to sleep. I was in so much pain from throwing up and not to mention it was past 11 and I was just tired beyond belief. Hmph.
I'm tired of constantly feeling hungry and then eating.
I don't feel sexy, beautiful or even cute.
I'm such a lazy bum these days.
How lame is that?!

Today just isn't a good day, even though it's only 7:30 in the morning.
I need to eat breakfast.
I stopped at Piggly Wiggly before coming into work and picked up some Saltine Crackers and ... French Toast Sticks.
I'm also sipping on some good ole' Ginger Ale.

So..anyway. I saw this on the lovely Sonya's blog and decided I would do it as well :]
Here goes, mine won't be that interesting:

Three names I go by:
Jessica
Jessie
Jessica Rose

Three Jobs I've Had:
Hedge Plus - my current job, clerical assistant.
Sarios - gross dishes, gross left over food *barf*
Jackson Crossings - awesome retirement community. I love old people.

Three Places I've Lived:
West Bend, WI - currently live with the love :D awesome place
Jackson, WI - where I grew up...for the most part
Florida - I miss it there :[

Three Favorite Drinks:
Mountain Dew - I've cut back...I swear
Ruby Tuesday Raspberry Fruit Tea - best best best tea EVER!!
Mocha Frap - Starbucks is the shiz nitz


Three TV Shows I Watch:
16 & Pregnant/Teen Mom - both are awesome
One Tree Hill
24

Three Places I've Been:
New York, NY - so insanley packed, cars are extremely rude to pedestrians! But I loved it there
Washington, DC - school trip, it was interesting
Ft. Lauderdale, FL - where my sister got married. It was beautiful & sunny
**I don't get out much, I need to explore the world**


Three Places I'd Like To Visit:
Punta Cana, Dominican Republic
Washington State - I love how green it looks there
Australia


Three Favorite Dishes:
Noodles & Co Buttered Noodles - my favorite
Bacon Burger & Fries
Steak & Potatoes 


Three Makeup Products I Can't Live Without:
CoverGirl LastBlast Volume Mascara
Revlon PhotoReady Powder
Eyeliner

Three Things I'm Looking Forward To:
All baby related things (gender, shopping, shower, birth..etc.)
Six Flags
More & More Sunshine
*This guy makes me giggle*


May 17, 2010

weekends, visiting, food, pregnancy



Mmm, Yummy. My delicious breakfast, Cinnamon Rolls :]
Who could NOT love them. They're fab.
Wooh hooo..anyways.
We're back to Monday. Boo. I hate Mondays.. most of the time. Sometimes I love them because they go uber quick, other times I hate them because I want to stay curled under the covers at home. Oh well, I need to work.

Over the weekend it was my cousins Sweet 16th Birthday!! Woot Woot, and unfortunately Justin and I missed it because his Grandpa was visiting from Ohio. BUT, we did show up around 9 p.m. :] I wasn't going to NOT show up. I had to give my cousin his present. $MONEY$ lol. Everyone loves money.

During the weekend, Justin and I went over to his parents house because his Grandpa from Ohio was finally visiting! I met his Grandpa once, and that was 2 years ago...maybe? It was just such a long time ago and that was the last time Justin saw him. I didn't want Justin to skip the oppurtunity to spend time with his Grandpa, especially since he isn't doing the greatest :[ But his Grandpa is the cutest most happiest old man ever and he knows sooo much about tomatoes!! LOL
Whenever we go over to Justin's parents house, we know there is going to be some amazing, mouth watering food, there always is. His mom is a fantastic cook. We had steak, potatoes, noodles, fluffy orange tangerine yummy desert. No idea what it is actually called but it's fab.

Passed around my ultrasound pictures because everyone was dying to see the little baby. His grandpa thinks it'll be a boy. And speaking of baby. I've made it too 11 weeks and pretty soon, I will be in the 2nd Trimester.
Woah, I guess time flies. I still remember when I found out I was pregnant and at the time I was only 3 weeks and a couple days! Yikes.

I'm still dealing with the fact that I am pregnant and I am still a kid myself. I know how to be an adult but I prefer to act silly and be young. It's who I am and life is so much easier when you are a little kid. Which brings me to a poem that I found a while back.

Sometimes, I wish I could be a little kid again
So when life gets tough you can just play pretend.
I want to go back to when santa did Exsist.
When your daddy was the only boy
you ever kissed.
When Disney World was the best place to be.
When the only movies you could see were rated G.
When your biggest problem was learing to write your name.
And people didn't change and your friends were the same.
And everytime you were sad or you had a bad day
You could just run to mommy and it would be OK.
When the best place to shop was Toys R Us.
When it was just to scary to ride the bus.
Before you ever had a broken heart and the pain of
being in love just didn't start.
I want to go back to no hurt and no pain.
Just laughter and when everyone always lives ...
Happily Ever After.

No clue who wrote that poem but it is definitely how I feel sometimes. Now, that all has to change. I have to grow up and and take care of this little tiny precious life. I'm scared sh*tless. I will make it through, I'll be strong and I'll be an awesome mama.

Besides that, I am feeling pretty good. I don't *usually* throw up. Only have twice so far. I'm still starving and am not looking forward to gaining more weight. Gaining weight is a scary scary thought for me. Ugh. I've been having some pretty severe headaches lately :/ and they really don't like going away. Luckily, I can take Tylenol which seems to help right away. And then I'm getting these back pains which last all day. Back pains aren't completely knew to me because I'm carrying around some BIG watermelons permantely stuck to me..ahaha..hmph. Ya, it sucks. I also wish I could take a million naps a day. I never seem to have enough energy, I could sleep & sleep. Sleep has become my new best friend.

But, I think I shall go since I am at work, maybe I should do some work.
Eh, fine, I suppose so.

XO.
ME

May 13, 2010

...



I think it's going to take more than sugar and caffeine.
I feel like crap!
That's all.

May 10, 2010

10 weeks



How far along? 10 weeks 2 days
Weight gain/loss: 3 pounds
Maternity clothes? I bought one maternity shirt, some beaters and the beband. Otherwise I can still fit in *most* of my clothes
Stretch marks? Just previous ones I had
Sleep? It comes and goes
Best moment this week? My mom got me a gift for mothers day :]
Food cravings? Raspberry sherbert, bacon, culvers chicken tenders dipped in a chocolate shake. simply delicious.
Gender: Won't know for a while. boooo
Belly button in or out? Still an innie
Movement? Lots & lots of stummy growlings
What I miss? Not constantly being hungry. I feel like a pig eating all the time
What I'm looking forward to: June 4th appointment, going back to Six Flags
Weekly wisdom: Today I am pregnant and I love my baby!
Milestones: Seeing baby kick, punch and move around like crazy!


Baby is now the size of a prune, measuring around 1.2 in and weighing around .14 oz.
Baby is swallowing fluid and kicking up a storm. Kidneys, intestines, brain and liver (now making red blood cells, in replace of the disappearing yolk sac) are in place and starting to function. Little tiny details are taking place, like tiny nails forming on fingers and toes and peach-fuzz hair beginning to grow. Also, babys limbs can now bend! Hands are flexed at the wrists and meet over the heart, feet may even be long enough to meet in front of babys body. Outline of babys spine is clearly visible through translucent skin, spinal nerves are beginning to stretch out from the spinal cord. Babys forehead temporarily bulges with a developing brain and sits very high on the head. Expect baby to double in the next three weeks! Grow baby grow!

May 7, 2010

interesting gender myths



It's a boy if:
* You didn't experience morning sickness in early pregnancy
* Your baby's heart rate is less than 140 beats per minute
* You are carrying the extra weight out front
* Your belly looks like a basketball
* Your areolas have darkened considerably
* You are carrying low
* You are craving salty or sour foods
* You are craving protein -- meats and cheese
* Your feet are colder than they were before pregnancy
* The hair on your legs has grown faster during pregnancy
* Your hands are very dry
* Your pillow faces north when you sleep
* Dad-to-be is gaining weight, right along with you
* Pregnancy has you looking better than ever
* Your urine is bright yellow in color
* Your nose is spreading
* You hang your wedding ring over your belly and it swings left to right
* You are having headaches
* You add your age at the time of conception and the number for the month you conceived and the sum is an even number

It's a girl if:
* You had morning sickness early in pregnancy
* Your baby's heart rate is at least 140 beats per minute
* You are carrying the weight in your hips and rear
* Your left breast is larger than your right breast
* Your hair develops red highlights
* You are carrying high
* Your belly looks like a watermelon
* You are craving sweets
* You are craving fruit
* You crave orange juice
* You don't look quite as good as normal during pregnancy
* You are moodier than usual during pregnancy
* Your face breaks out more than usual
* You refuse to eat the heel of a loaf of bread
* Your breasts have really blossomed!
* Your pillow faces south when you sleep
* Your urine is a dull yellow color
* You hang your wedding ring over your belly and it moves in a circle
* You add your age at the time of conception and the number for the month you conceived and the sum is an odd number

May 5, 2010

decisions decisions...



I know, I know. It's so early to be looking at nursery items already but I seriously can't help myself. I have serious problems. :/ Not to mention Etsy has become one of my favorite websites for cutesy handmade items.

Originally I had my heart set on getting the Carters Sleep Haven Convertible Crib. Until I realized I would be spending almost $500 on it. That quickly changed my mind...until I went into Babies R Us and realized why I feel in love with it. Ugh, but I can't get it. It's just way out of my budget when I can get a nice looking crib that I still love for a much less and better price.


So, instead I have decided to get the Graco Lauren Convertible Crib which is just as nice and just as beautiful for much much less!! I'm pretty excited and can't wait to buy it once I enter the second trimester.

Now, crib bedding has been such a pain in the butt. I just can't seem to find anything that I am in love with for a decent price. So, I've decided this is the ONE and ONLY item I am allowing myself to splurge on. With that being said, here are a couple I have picked out for a boy and girl.

 Girl Option #1  (my favorite so far)
Not a big fan of the crib skirt, I prefer one that is ruffled together like option #2. Luckily, the lady who hand makes these, will happily change something not to difficult free of charge.
Girl Option # 2
Boy Option #1
Boy Option # 2

Decisions, decisions, decisions. Who knew it would be this hard? Definitely not me, and what makes it harder is Justin. He's such a picky man and he honestly has every right to be. It's his child too, not just mine. I can't go out buying big things without him liking it. He would hate me. Well, not hate, but he'd be upset he didn't get to help with the decision making. 

xo. 
the lovely me.

May 4, 2010

houston, we have a hearbeat



Well hello there beautiful baby! First big appointment went extremely well! For the first time ever I got to hear the heartbeat :] It's such an amazing, beautiful sound. At first, baby was all curled up and didn't want to move. Just a little bumping around and baby started kicking, punching and flipping like crazy! In the picture you can see the little legs, I don't know where the arms are, they're hiding. 

According to thebump and my baby book, baby has officially now graduated from embryo to fetus hood and is now the size of an olive.. Tiny muscles are starting to form and his/her head is continuing to develop and take on more and more baby-like proportions.

Luckily, I have had a pretty easy pregnancy. I'm not constantly throwing up, just feeling nauseous most of the day, mainly in the mornings and when my stomach is empty. This has caused me to eat and eat and eat! Those tender boobs are still kicking my butt!! I recently spent $45 on a new Victoria's Secret bra, which by the way I love. I would definitely recommend the Body by VS bra :] It's now my favorite. 

Did I mention I went to SIX FLAGS?! Well, I did. It was amazing and luckily I made it the whole ride without having to stop and go pee. I avoided all rides because I didn't want to chance anything. Instead, I spent my time walking around and enjoying the weather, while also enjoying a very yummy sundae funnel cake! Either way, rides or no rides, I enjoyed myself and can't wait to go back. 

That's all for now. I smell syrup and have a sudden urge to eat some breakfast food! :D
xo.
ME