Sep 30, 2010


Johnson & Johnson and Wal-Mart Sued for Selling Toxic Baby Shampoo

"If you purchased Johnson & Johnson’s Baby Shampoo or Wal-Mart brand Equate Tearless Baby Wash, you may want to stop using it. A class action lawsuit has been approved this month that claims these products may contain a toxin linked to cancer."

"The class action lawsuit, filed earlier this year, accuses Johnson & Johnson and Wal-Mart Stores of selling shampoo and baby wash that allegedly contains methylene chloride, an ingredient banned by the FDA in cosmetics because it’s linked to cancer. The law firm that filed the lawsuit is also investigating Target’s Night-time Bath and Body Wash, which is not currently named in the suit."

Fisher PriceRecalls 11 Million Items for Infants and Toddlers

Popular toy brand Fisher-Price is recalling millions of products in both the US and Canada due to safety concerns.
The recall includes approximately 7 million Fisher-Price Trikes and Tough Trikes Toffler tricycles. The products are being recalled following several reports of children being injured.

“A child can strike, sit or fall on the protruding plastic ignition key, resulting in serious injury, including genital bleeding,” the U.S. Consumer Product Safety Commission said.

The number of products sold in the US is significantly higher than those sold in Canada. The US CPSC said there are about 7 million sold in the US and only 150,000 in Canada.
Other products included in the recall are Fisher-Price’s Little People Wheelies Stand ‘n Play Rampway. There have been no injuries as a result of the defect but two reports of wheels detaching were filed. In addition, the company’s Healthy Care, Easy Clean and Close to Me High Chairs are also being recalled because children can fall on the pegs found on the back legs of the chair.

Sep 29, 2010

Teen Mom

I can't believe that this is the 2nd season of Teen Mom and pretty soon another season of 16 & Pregnant will be starting! Seems like just yesterday the cast of Teen Mom were pregnant. Definitely shows how fast time flies and how a person(s) life changes because of a baby.

Now Maci has always, always been my favorite. I just found her to be the most mature and most loving person over everyone else. She definitely makes Bentley her number 1 priority and puts him first.

Catelynn is my 2nd favorite. I give so many kuddos to her and her fiance for picking adoption for their beautiful daughter Carly. They knew that they wanted better than what they could give her and gave her two amazing parents. Their story constantly made me cry.

I have so much to say about Amber. I do not remember her in 16 and Pregnant but season 2 of Teen Mom  definitely makes her seem like a horrible mother. I can't believe the way she treats Gary, the way she talks to him, the foul mouth she has in front of her daughter, not to mention the hitting/punching. Domestic Violence people?  I just don't think that she is very fit to be a mother until she figures out her issues and works on her anger management. I feel horrible for saying that...and this...but Gary should have taken Leah a long time ago.

I feel bad for Farrah and most of all Sophia. Sophia is adorable and I can't imaging what it is going to be like for her when she learns about what happened to her daddy :[ Growing up without one is never fun. I don't think Farrah is a horrible mother but there are definite things that she needs to work on. I wish she didn't treat some people the way she did. I definitely know that she IS trying and considering she is doing a lot of it on her own, she isn't doing too bad.

Sep 28, 2010

30 weeks 3 days

How far along? 30 weeks 3 days

Weight gain/loss: Will find out friday. N o way am I weighing myself.

Symptoms: Back aches, lots of fetal activity, dizziness, acid reflux, FATIGUE! It's back 100%

Maternity clothes? Maternity jeans and maternity beaters, some tops.

Stretch marks? Don’t remind me. no amount of cocoa butter are going to help these bad boys.

Sleep? I stopped taking my Tylenol pm so now I’m having trouble sleeping some nights and I just can’t seem to get comfortable. I terribly miss laying on my stomach.

Best moment this week? Honestly, I bought some panties that fit :]

Food cravings: Pumpkin everything.

Gender: She’s still a girl!

Belly button in or out? Still an innie, I’m waiting for the day it pops.

Movement? All the time now, she is kicking my bladder this very moment.

What I miss? I miss sleeping on my stomach and not waking up a billion times in the middle of the night to pee.

Labor Signs: None, which is a plus.

What I'm looking forward to: Appointment this Friday & Baby shower is in 3 weeks!!!

Milestones: Hiccups :]

30 weeks 3 days
What's Laila Up To?
Your belly’s increasing size is a definite clue that your baby is getting bigger every day, weighing in at over three pounds now (she’ll be packing on the weight at a rate of half a pound per week for the next seven weeks). Also growing daily is her brain, which is actually starting to look like the real thing with those characteristic grooves and wrinkles. And now that your little genius can regulate her own body temperature and turn up the heat, she'll start shedding lanugo, the downy body hair that's been keeping hier warm up until now.

Sep 20, 2010


I’m honestly ready for this pregnancy to be over and for Laila to be out.

It’s just getting to be too much for me.

I have acid reflux like crazy, to the point where I want to clench my own throat.

I can’t fit into any of my clothes.

I have stretch marks SO freaking bad; it almost looks like I was attacked by a lion.

My back is killing me nonstop and nothing seems to be helping, except lying down.

I want to smack Justin in the head sometimes, even though I love him dearly.
My hormones or just up the wing wang and I cannot keep anything straight. I don’t know HOW or WHY he puts up with me.

I'm having health issues :[

My blood pressure has been abnormally high at my last couple appointments. I'm talking 52/184. Believe me, that's NOT a good number at all. I think it mainly has to do with me always being nervous going in.

But now they have to keep a close eye on me.

I also gained 9 lbs in ONE freaking month. Combine those two and...

I may have preeclamapsia.

(Most women who get preeclampsia develop a mild version near their due date, and they and their babies do fine with proper care. But when preeclampsia is severe, it can affect many organs and cause serious or even life-threatening problems. That's why you'll need to deliver early if your condition is severe or getting worse. Preeclampsia causes the blood vessels to constrict, resulting in high blood pressure and a reduced blood flow that can affect organs throughout the body, including the liver, kidneys, and brain. When less blood is being delivered to your uterus, it can mean problems for your baby, such as poor growth, too little amniotic fluid, and placental abruption (when the placenta separates from the uterine wall before delivery.)

Luckily, I haven't had any swelling, just pregnancy face.

Honestly, I'm scared for my life, for my daughters life. I'm terrified that something is going to go terribly wrong and she'll have to be delivered early.

I suppose I should stop worrying. There's no point. It'll just make me more paranoid.


I had ordered maternity clothes for a wedding reception that Justin and I were going to on Friday.
At first I was comfortable with the way I was looking, but felt like I didn't look good enough. Sooo..I tried on an old pair of pants I had from high school...totally not a good idea.
Yes, I got them up but no way were those suckers being button OR even zipped.
I completely broke down in front of Justin like a big baby. I just couldn't hide it or hold it in anymore.
Poor Justin, I don't know how he deals with me but I couldn't do this without him. He always makes me feel better and cheers me up.
He even offered to skip the reception but I went for him..I didn't want him to not go and see one of his BEST FRIENDS who he hadn't seen in a while just because his pregnant girlfriend looked/felt like a whale.
Plus, a lot of people from his work were going to be there and they were dying to meet me and my belly :]
We're just THAT cool !

In the end, I had a pretty nice time.

mama & laila

Sep 16, 2010


I've been preparing a checklist of things that I need to get done, BEFORE Laila makes her arrival. I'm starting to think that checklist is NEVER going to get finished. Seriously, what is this "nesting" thing that I hear of. I have no desire to do anything but be lazy and sleep. Yes, the fatigue has come back to haunt me. AHH you son of a GUN! Maybe I set high standards for myself or maybe I am just that lazy of a person.

Sign up for Classes (Breastfeeding & Newborn Care)
Set up maternity leave (Dec 2 - Jan 21)
Finishing lining the dresser drawers (ALMOST done!!)
Finish DIY flower mobile
Any other finishing touches to the nursery
Sterilize pump/bottles/etc.
Send Thank Yous - Baby Shower (When I have it)
Pick Birth Announcements
Install Car Seat - Have inspected by professional
Pack Bag
Buy/Make Pillow Case
Prepare a few frozen meals
Bathe the dog/Make plan for persons watch her
Set up ALL baby gear and learn how to use
Charge camera battery
Stock up on paper plates
Get new tires put on car/get rear drums
Set up Health Insurance for Laila
Get another haircut (around November)
Find a replacement person @ work for when I am on MLeave

Some stuff isn't necessary, some stuff I'm sure I won't get done. I just wish I *wanted* to nest.

Maybe soon. After all, I am only 28 weeks.

Sep 14, 2010

Making fun of the pregnant chick :[

Saturday afternoon, I had my first encounter of being made fun of for something pregnancy related.
It wasn't by a kid, a teenage or someone in their 20's or 30's.
This guy and wife, must have been in there 50's.
And in their free time, they like to point, laugh and mock the pregnant chick.

I was actually quite pissed off and disturbed by this, not to mention Justin.
I think he took it harder than I did.

Maybe because he saw more than I did...and heard more.

I was just walking to my car, standing there, waiting for this lady to get out so I could squeeze my ginormous belly along with bags of pork steaks and soda I was carrying.

When the lady starts laughing and tells her husband to stop laughing and staring.
They walk off, I open my door and turn back and look at them.

There he is imitating my walk and laughing.
I turned around, sick of what I was seeing.

I guess that wasn't the end of their "fun" though
Justin was still in the store in the check out isle and heard this guy/wife making fun of me.

By the time Justin came out I could tell he was pissed.
I thought maybe something else happened.
Nope, he came out and told me they were still making fun of me.

Really? You're in your 50's and you're making fun of ME for how I walk?!?
I have a baby wedged in between all sorts of places.
Leave me the eff alone.

Ya, I was pretty hurt.
Justin was furious.

Sep 12, 2010


My biological mother and father aren't around.
Simply because they picked drugs and alcohol over me and my 3 siblings.
I struggled with this forever and then learned to move on.
Because I was given something much better. 
I was given a loving family who adopted me.  

But In my teenage years, I loved alcohol. 
That and some other things.
It was my way to cope with my life and being unsatisfied.  
I wasn't happy with my life.
The fact that I was adopted. 
So I drank, quite a lot.
Just to deal with the inside hurt and pain.

And now, I don't drink. 
One, because I'm pregnant. 
Two, I was never good at drinking.
Three, It's honestly just not my thing.
I'd drink & drink and throw up. 
Feeling like complete shit.
I prefer to be my sober silly self. 

So when someone around me always drinks, 
I feel hurt and alone...completely alone.
Especially when it causes us to fight more. 
Words are said and feelings are hurt. 
Tears flow. 

I'm trying to just put on a happy face.
Act like nothing is wrong.
But deep down...I feel really broken and alone.


Sep 8, 2010

27 Weeks 4 Days

How far along? 27 weeks 4 days
6 months, holy shmokes!!!!

Weight gain/loss: who's counting? leave me alone.

Symptoms: Heartburn/acid reflux is kicking my arse.
Maternity Clothes? they really are delightful

Stretch marks? they keep showing up. I swear it looks like a lion attacked my belly

Sleep? much much better. I've really been enjoying sleeping with the window open since nights are cooler now. BRING ON FALL!

Best moment this week? I didn't have to work on Monday. :]

Food cravings: Applesauce, apple pie, apples w/ peanut butter!

Gender: She's still the best beautiful girl ever!

Belly button in or out? Still an innie but if I stretch my belly all funky I can make it stick out.

Movement? Mornings & Nights. Sometimes when I eat. She has a schedule..most of the time.

What I miss? Fitting into my cute clothes or just any of my clothes.

Labor Signs: None, Keeping cooking Laila :]

What I'm looking forward to: Autumn, the lovely Sonya Marie Shirk asked to do my maternity shoot for me! Is it December yet?

Milestones: I felt hiccups! They make me laugh.

What's Laila Up To?
For a baby, it's time to trade in the old crown-to-rump measurement for a new head-to-toe standard. So what are your baby’s stats this week (which, coincidentally, is the end of the second trimester)? Fifteen inches — more than a foot long — and triple (or even quadruple) what it was in week 12. Her weight is creeping up the charts as well, coming in at just over two pounds. More big news: Your baby may recognize your voice by now, so feel free to serenade your belly (start learning those lullabies!).
27 weeks 4 days

She's getting SO big!

Sep 2, 2010


Out of EVERYTHING that comes with having a newborn, breastfeeding is definitely the scariest for me but it’s something that I’ve known I’ve always wanted to do. But now that I am pregnant I can’t stop panicking of the thought that I will fail at it. What if my supply doesn’t come in? What if she doesn’t latch? What if I can’t get comfortable with the feeling or get use to it? How will I deal with having to pump while still working a full time job? I’m always asking “What If” and I’m really starting to dig myself into a bigger hole.

I’ve even started reading “The Nursing Mothers Companion” which by the way is a freaking amazing book with a ton of useful information! I’ll be taking a breastfeeding class later on and I’m trying to get a ton of information from people who have breastfed but I feel like nothing is “enough” for me. I’m seriously terrified that I WON’T be able to breastfeed or that I will fail.

I find pregnancy to be an amazing and beautiful experience. But I didn’t think I would have such a hard time adjusting to the body changes. I HATE gaining weight. I HATE stretch marks. I HATE feeling ugly and fat. Right now I’m not comfortable with my body and at times I even find myself hiding from Justin because I’m embarrassed. I have NO confidence whatsoever.