Dec 28, 2011

Christmas and an Adoption Hearing!

Phew! Christmas was a breeze and I'm kind of glad it's over and done with. We went to so many family functions and Laila received way too many toys, just like her birthday. Our dining room turned playroom is packed and looks like a tornado went through it. It's sad to think that in a couple days, after the new years, I'll have to take down our Christmas tree and all our Christmas decor. *sniffle* I love Christmas and what I also love is having the time off from work to spend it with my family.

Speaking off, having the last 4 days off really set something off inside me. It made me really realize how much I wish I could stay home with Laila and it brings tears to my eyes. Especially since I've been frusturated with certain aspects of my job but hey, that's what being a grown up is about right? Justin and I need both of our incomes. So I'll be stuck sitting behind this desk, eyes glued to the computer for the next couple...months? years? forever? who knows.

Another fun and exciting event that went on this weekend: My parents adopted again! The official court hearing was yesterday which unfortunately I missed almost the whole thing. Had to tend to a cranky toddler that was getting evil looks, out in the hallway. Afterwards, everyone headed to my parents church to celebrate with some lunch, presents, and cake. It was a really great time and I am so excited for her to finally be in our family!

I have to get around to editing and posting all the pictures from Christmas and the adoption. It's just been a busy time for us. Hang in there!

Dec 23, 2011


This year has come and gone just like that and I still can't believe that over a year ago, I gave birth to the sweetest little girl ever.

It's just so crazy to know that this time last year, I was cuddling with my old month old, who needed me to do everything for her. Now, my almost 13 month old has become so independent. She runs around the house, dances, babbles all day long, insists on pulling ornaments off the tree, helps wraps presents then unwraps them the second she realizes no one is looking at her. Hides things in the garbage can, and so much more. But she is still my baby and always will be.

I love this age.

Anyways, Christmas is right around the corner and I feel...rushed. I wasn't expecting this time to sneak up so quickly on us. I still have some presents to pick up and wrap and the cookies we made yesterday have to be decorated today. We'll also being going to my dads parents house tonight for some Christmas time and yet today is a work day for me, only till 1:30 though.

I just need time to slow down and that is not going to happen. Nope. Never.

But, I'll me mia for the next couple days. I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas!!

Dec 15, 2011

I've been MIA for some time now and I figured it's time I share what's been going on. Err, that just sounded like I was giving bad news. Hmm, nope no bad news here...except that I just got over the flu and it came out of nowhere! All the sudden I woke up at 2:38 a.m. went to the bathroom and puked, went back to bed, woke up in the morning and sat, and sat oh and sat SOME MORE on the toilet (tmi?) and then went to work. Puked at work, looked like death, was sent home after being there an hour, puked and sat more more on the toilet. Ugh, my body was weak. I could barely walk, pick things up, I was not functioning. Oh and blood showed up. And a fever. Some shivering. Some sweats. Horrible horrible horrible!

Anywho, Laila had her one year appointment December 2 - the day before her birthday party! She's 20 pounds, um can't remember her height and apparently here head shrunk? It'll get remeasured at her next appointment, she just was not too interested in having something wrapped around her noggin' and I don't blame her! Which resulted in a screaming, wiggling back and forth baby while I frankly try and hold tight to make sure she doesn't fall out of my arms. Are one year olds really that strong?!

Shots - oh the dreadful shots. I for sure thought I was going to start crying. This was the worst ever, she's learned that when there are two nurses getting stuff ready that it's time for shots. It was horrible. 2 shots in on her right leg went quickly but the 1 shot on her left leg didn't go so well, she couldn't keep Laila's leg held down too well to get the shot and ended up pricking her and having to redo it. Of course it was a shot that had to sting and she shrieked. eeekkkk. It was horrible. I swooped her up as sooooonnnn as I could. :[ The whole thing just felt so unfair for Laila :[

The next day came so fast and I was rushing to get things done. Good thing Laila napped and hour and a half before her party started. I had to wake her up when all the people started showing up! Everything was a blast and I took in every moment I could, trying not to stress over the little things. Here are some photos from the party.

This is on November 30th - the day she turned 1. Justin put some ice cream on her plate with her cupcake. Too cold ice cream resulted in this face but isn't it still the best face ever!??!! I giggle every time I see this :]

December 3rd - opening birthday presents in front of our Christmas Tree (which she won't stop touching now) 

Pointing at her cake but being such a good girl waiting patiently.

Smearing it all over her face, which took her a while to do. She was gently touching her cake when we first brought it out to her. 

"What is this stuff all over my hands?"

The birthday girl had a blast and actually had to go down for a nap maybe 15 minutes after her cake and people were still gettin' their party on, haha. She received a boat load of toys and they're currently overtaking our formal dining room which has been her playroom ever since we moved in.. I still can't believe I have a one year old. How is that? Can someone turn back time so I can re-live all those precious newborn moments? Nope? I didn't think so. But, I sure will enjoy all these precious moments of my one year old. Love you my dear Laila.


cool fact: Laila's name means "dark haired beauty" which I find beautiful. Here's to hoping she has dark hair like myself (she already has my curly hair...on the back of her head)

Dec 5, 2011

Laila's Birthday Party

I was a complete mess the day of Laila's birthday party. I couldn't stop worrying about anything and everything. I kind of felt like I wanted to pull my hair out and fast forward to the end of the day.

I was worried where people would park and if they'd complain because we live on a busier street. I was worried about food and if there would be enough. I was worried about having 20+ people in our home, since this is the first time all of our family has been in our house at once. I was afraid it wouldn't be clean enough or as "put together" since we have nothing on the walls, paint swatches in various rooms but really, no one seemed to mine.

And I stressed over no reason. We had plenty of food! Yes, there were some issues with parking but it didn't ruin our day. The only thing I was hoping for, was some sunshine. Instead, we got rain. Bleh.

Laila received so many nice toys. Clothes, puzzles, Violet, a phone, a laptop, a popper, magnets, bath stickys and many many more toys. She didn't really open her gifts as much as I thought she would. Probably because she was distracted by the new toys that were already opened? Didn't matter though, she was all smiles. And when it came time for her cake, at first she wasn't too interested. She'd stick her fingers in it, look at them and wonder what all the stuff was. "hmm, this tastes good, i'll just stick my whole hand in there now and shove it in my face" that's pretty much how it went. Not too bad!

Shortly after her cake, she was ready for a nap and her party wasn't even over, there was still maybe 20 minutes left. But, Justin cleaned her off and layed her down. I didn't want to force her to stay awake. She was beat and ended up sleeping till 5:30 after going down around 2:40ish. No bigger, gave me time to completely open all her toys and clean up.

I have yet to edit all of the pictures taken from her birthday and her party. I promise I'll get around to it, hopefully sooner rather than later.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!!

Nov 30, 2011

Happy Birthday!!!

This post will be short and sweet, just how I like it :]

Today, my baby turned ONE! I stayed home with her, slept in, made her pancakes, finished decorating the house with all types of Christmas decor, cleaned, went to Hobby Lobby with my mother and Laila, went out to lunch with mom, Laila and my aunt, did a ton more cleaning, played and played with my one year old. She was SO pooped out, and is already in bed and has been since 6:45. I think it was the cupcake and Red Velvet Ice Cream and not only did she get it ALL over her, she smothered my face in it while we were trying to take pictures. She seriously is THE best ever.

Lately, Laila has been showing me how smart she is. She is starting to repeat everything  you do. She wipes her mouth after eating, puts toys away, she even repeated "you did it" just like the show she was watching. I tip-toed into her room last night to find her awake and playing, so I brought her into bed to get some snuggle time in and attempt to read a book. Instead, we just lied there and guess what she did?? She continuously rubbed my forehead and hair back, just like I do to her.  I am so amazed at how much she has grown in the last year.

I look back at the times she was just born, holding her for the first time, kissing her, smelling her and telling her how much I love her and how happy I was she was finally here. I remember everything. the labor and delivery, the overflow of emotions that took over my body. I remember leaving the hospital and bringing her home for the first time and all the sudden I was stressed. Not because I just had a baby, but because I had to put too much stuff away that was taken and received at the hospital. No matter how tired, stressed or wondering "why am I crying about this stupid crock pot I can't put away" (yes, I did cry over a crock pot) I was still overly grateful to have a healthy, happy baby-family.  Everything is still so fresh in my mind and I love remembering it all but I look forward to all the other milestones, her 2nd birthday, 3rd, 4th, the day she learns to tie her shoes, ride a bike,the day she gets married, has kids, everything.

I'm so proud to be her mama and I'm so in love with her. Happy 1st Birthday, Laila. Mama loves you, to the moon and back and back again.

(how's that for short and sweet, :P)

Nov 23, 2011

convertible carseat hunt

Laila has been in her infant carseat for almost a year now and it's definitely time that we switch her on over to a convertible carseat. But finding the right convertible carseat has not been as easy as I thought.

I want something super safe, comfortable, something that will accomdate her as she grows and something not to ugly. Oh, and one that won't break my pockets. Is that too much to ask for? Apparently, for me, it is because I just cannot find the perfect one. Scratch that, I did find the perfect one, Graco Smart Seat All-in-One, linky here. Unfortunately, $300 isn't in our budget at this time, especially around the holidays. But, this morning, I noticed it was on sale for $239.99. Better, but still more than what I wanted to spend.

Then there is this one, Graco My Ride 65 and I have heard lovely things about it. Everyone seems to rav how awesome it is, and one of the biggest things I loved, it was for rear-facing or forward-facing. To me, that is very important because I want Laila to stay rear-facing as long as her little legs can handle it. I've heard during the summer the seat can get very warm, it's just not breathy enough. Does that make sense? Some also say once you face it forward, it tilts too far back causing they're child to constantly try to sit up. Also, I'm not sold on the pattern and have seen others elsewhere and for a little less money.

Next up, Graco Nautiuls Three-in-One. Seems SO incredibly safe it's undelievable, biggest down-fall for me, it's only forward-facing. I do like that she could go in it now and then when she gets old enough, it's also the booster seat for her. The price also doesn't break our pockets. 

Have you noticed a pattern here? All of these convertible carseats are by Graco. What can I say?! I love Graco! Anyone have any recommendations on convertible carseats?! Help me out!!

30 Days of Thanks: Days 15-23

Can you believe it?! Thanksgiving is tommorrow and I couldn't be more excited. I am so ready to surround myself with family, homemade recipes and laughter. AND my daughter's birthday is NEXT Wednesday!

Day 15: Coffee, I cannot function without it. Coffee keeps me sane and is the reason I can function on a day to day basis. Whether it be coffee I make at home, Starbucks or my new favorite, Dunn Brothers, I love it all. Thanks coffee!!

Day 16: Hot water, If I wasn't able to run a hot shower or bath, I would be pretty freaking miserable and super cranky. Hot showers are one of my favorite parts of the day and after Laila goes to bed, I enjoy just sitting in the water and thinking about anything and everything.

Day 17: Leah, my sister who lives all the way in Ohio..ok ok, it's not that far away. I miss my sister every single day and I hate not being able to see her as often. I just long for that siterly-bond/sercret-sharing that I see going on with other sisters and wish her and I could spend more time together. She's amazing, kind, and such a hard worker.

Day 18: Foodgawker, feed your eyes! Ah, why oh why must I love this site so much?! Because it has delicious recipes right in front of my face. :] Sometimes, I can't help it if I drool all over the place.

Day 19: Thanksgiving, an amazing time of the year where you can surrond yourself with family and be thankful for everything you have. Although, you should be thankful everyday.

Day 20: My camera, which goes along with pictues. If I didn't have my camera, I wouldn't be able to take pictures. I wouldn't be able to capture those beautiful, sad, mad and exciting moments that happen throughout everyones life. I'm hoping to use my camera to share other peoples moments with them, in time.

Day 21: Sunshine. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray. La de da de da. I love the sun and the sun keeps me in a good mood. I can get very depressed if I go days without sunshine. So winter can be especially hard on me. I'm hoping this year isn't too bad.  : /

Day 22: Comfortable clothing. I have so sense of fashion, haha. I wear what feels comfortable and what I look good in. And most days, that's usually just jeans and a hoodie. So boring but it's what makes me feel comfortable. Not going to lie, I definitely need to step out of my bubble and try new things out!

Day 23: Every single family member I have. I mentioned that I am thankful for my mom, dad, aunt, and sister but what about all the other family members I have? I'm thankful for every single one of them because every single one of them accepted me into their lives when I was adopted, every single one of them watched me struggle growing up and every single one of them helped me overcome my hardships. How could I not be thankful for such an amazing family?!

Nov 15, 2011

christmas meme - join in!

Jess from IROCKSOWHAT posted this Christmas Meme on her blog and I wanted in on the fun. Everyone should do this :]

1. Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate? I absolutley hate egg nog, so hot chocolate it is

2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree? he has the elves do them, silly.

3. Colored lights on tree/house or white? I prefer white with colorful ornaments on a tree. On my house, color!

4. Do you hang mistletoe? never have, maybe this year I will ;)

5. When do you put your decorations up? our tree is already up :] thank you to the guy from CL who sold it to us!

6. What is your favorite holiday dish? um, pie. no doubt!

7. Favorite Holiday memory as a child? all of the kids would head over to my grandma and grandpa's house and bake/decorate a crap ton of cookies and take our own home! we've done this every year and this year, i'll still be joining in.

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa? can't remember. i'm guessing my parents just decided to tell me.

9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve? use to all the time..

10. How do you decorate your Christmas tree? well this year we bought the tree pre-lit with white lights and pinecones and I just finished a pinterest project and made my own ornaments. hopefully it looks nice

11. Snow! Love it or Dread it? if I can sit inside with some slippers, sweatpants on and some coffee, then I love snow. If I have to go outside and drive in it (if it's bad) then I hate it!

12. Can you ice skate? pft, when I was younger, now I'm sure i'll just fall on my arse.

13. Do you remember your favorite gift? Laila was born a month before Christmas and I'm pretty sure that was the best gift ever, awww :]

14. What’s the most important thing about the Holidays for you? spending quality time with family and lots of delicious food

15. What is your favorite Holiday Dessert? Pie and all sorts of pie

16. What is your favorite holiday tradition? baking and decorating cookies @ my grandma and grandpas house with all the other kids.

17. What tops your tree? A star.

18. Which do you prefer giving or receiving? hate both. I suck at giving gifts and I hate when people watch me open mine, I just feel so akward. But this year, I'm pretty excited about giving because i'll be making a lot of cakes in a jar

19. Candy Canes: Yuck or Yum? yum but I mostly use them for decoration

20. Favorite Christmas show? Elf, Santa Claus (all) and pretty much everything else that is Christmas

21. Saddest Christmas Song? Silent Night

22. What is your favorite Christmas song? I want a hippopotamus for Christmas

Nov 14, 2011

All About Laila: 11 Months

Dear Laila,

This is only the second letter I've wrote you, one at birth and now this one, closer to your 1st birthday. Can you believe that in only 2 weeks, you're going to be one?! I can't because just yesterday, I was cradling you in my arms and singing a lullaby to you. I remember the day you were born, I was lucky and had a fast and easy delivery. You were so eager to come out and once you did, you cried, the most beautiful sound ever. You were placed on my chest and I couldn't stop crying and saying "I love you" over and over again. And since that day, you have grown up right before my eyes.

You no longer sleep in bed with us, or need me to hold your bottle, you love to do everything yourself and are so independent, it scares me. But there are still days where you want to sit on my lap all day long and cuddle. I love those days. I miss having you sleep right next to me though, the warmth of your body, listening to you breath and guess what?! Sometimes, you even snore. But, I can still hear all of that on the monitor.

Your appetite seems to be getting bigger everyday, all you want to do is eat. You aren't a fan of eggs (anymore) avocado, carrots (depending on how they're cooked) and some other items, like fruit. The only fruit I can get you to eat all the time is a banana. You totally love those things. Pretty soon you'll be on whole milk, woohoo! You hate your formula, anyways.

You've been going to bed around 7-7:30 for a while now and usually wake up around 6:30. I enjoy spending my mornings with you, lounging in our pajamas with the sun beaming in through the window. It's always a great morning. I miss taking you for walks but it's to cold for that, and I really think you miss it too. You are SUCH an outside baby toddler.

You wave bye-bye to everyone except me. I think you are just too smart and know that I'll be right back. You love strangers, is that weird and when did that happen? I remember the days you would scream if someone looked at you that you didn't even know. But now, you love when random people talk to you. You even wave bye-bye to them. You also clap, all.the.time, especially in the bathtub.

You also have some awesome moves and love to dance with me when there is music on. You're walking now, and have been since 10ish months. I love seeing you walk everywhere or even run. Although, seeing you run just scares me because you tend to fall a lot. Have to work on that balance a little more. Once walking came along, a few more bumps and bruises also came. But, you picked yourself right back up and continued to walk. You don't give up!

You have come to love the dog, Mykenzie. You give her hugs, pet her, pull her tail, play with her water and food and Mykenzie's favorite, you feed her!! I hope you continue to love animals as you get older.

Last weekend, you spent your first couple nights away from me but I don't even think you noticed, haha. You did awesome. I think I had the most trouble being away from you. I felt weird being so far, not able to give you a hug or kiss whenever I wanted but you and I talked on the phone a lot, that was nice!!

Speaking of talking, you still say the same words that you've been saying. One word you did pick up is puppy! You still love to read books and will sit and read them to me instead of the other way around. You have learned how to open the cabinets so it's time for us to lock those suckers up. You enjoy doing laps around the house, pulling on the gate, looking out the window, and the best - giving hugs.

I'm so proud of everything you have accomplished and I am so excited to watch you grow into this beautiful girl. Just don't grow too fast, mama isn't ready. Mama loves you, to the moon and back and back again.

30 Days of Thanks: Days 11-14

Hope everyone has a fantastic weekend. Ours involved paint samples, ripping up carpet, leaves, and sunshine and some talk about putting up and knocking down walls. Having a home makes my mind wander in all sorts of directions.

But, back to thanks.

Pictures and lots of them. Pictures are a great way to capture a very special, sad, mad, exciting moment and there something you can hold onto forever, even if that memory of the day starts to fade away. I often find myself looking back at my old pictures of when I was 5, 10, 15 and being so thankful to have these pictures. And that's exactly what I want Laila to do, to look back and be thankful to have all these pictures of her life growing up.

Naps. Who doesn't love a good nap? I sure do and to be honest, I never get to take a nap anymore. If/when Laila naps, I stay awake because that's time that I have to myself to get things done around the house or even just sit and read a good book, or enjoy a good workout. But, when I actually do give in and take a nap, I almost never regret it because I feel oh so wonderful afterwards.

Disney Junior Yes my child does watch Disney Junior on the Disney channel in the morning. She loves to watch Little Einsteins, that pirate show and some other ones. No, she doesn't sit there all morning, staring at the tv but she does enjoy what she is watching so why not let her?

Pinterest I can't get enough of Pinterest and it really inspires me to bring out my crafty side. Over the weekend, I even managed to make some of my own ornaments that I saw on YoungHouseLove, who pinned them with the oh so awesome, Pinterest.

There you have it, the last 4 days of what I'm thankful for.

Nov 10, 2011

30 Days of Thanks: Days 9 & 10

I'm greatful for a TON of things, some important and some not that important at all and certainly, things that I could live without.

Food: Our bodies need food and water to survive and I hate knowing that there are a million people out there that don't get to eat. I feel horrible when I throw a bunch of food away or let it go to waste, because that food could definitely go to someone else. Sometimes, I just have to realize how much I have, and how little some people have. If I could help everyone, I could. But, I'm not superwomen. I'm thankful for food

Coca-Cola: Totally lame but I am a Coca-Cola addict and I am so thankful for that soda. That's all I have to say about that... Lame, right? Yes, I know...

taking a second... pray for the families of loved ones that were injured/killed in a horrible accident that took place Wednesday at 9 a.m, involving 2 semis and 6 other cars.

And even though I do not know a single person that was involved, I do have friends that knew someone and it breaks my heart that something SO tragic can happen.

Please be safe while driving!               & Stay tuned for Days 9 & 10 of 30 Days of Thanks

Nov 9, 2011

Wordless{ish} Wednesday V.1

I was suppose to be back today with my All About Laila: 11 Months but instead I'm participating in Wordless Wednesday for the first time ever, I think.

And look what we have here, our first snowfall of the season. This makes me pretty excited. It means Christmas is coming up soon and I just love Christmas. The snow, the fresh smell of apple pies, Christmas trees, Christmas decor, lovely scented candles. It's just too darn breathtaking not to love.

Luckily, none of the snow is sticking because I definitely need new tires this year!

Nov 8, 2011

30 Days of Thanks: Day 8

I promised I would be back today for my 30 Days of Thanks with Day 8 and here I am.

Day 8: Buying a home was a very very stressful situation for Justin and I. We got approved, looked at a few houses and fell in love with the one we currently live in. But, buying a home goes much deeper than that. There's money involved and a lot of it, and that scared the both of us. At the time, we weren't sure what we were getting ourselves into when we realized all the money that would have to come out of our pocket. But luckily, it wasn't too bad and at the end of the day, we are SO glad to be here, in our home and I don't regret anything. Were just hoping we can create many memories, traditions, and special moments here that we'll remember and cherish for the rest of our lives. And it was very important to us, that Laila would have a place to call home. I'm very thankful that everything worked out and we live in an amazing home, even if there were a couple speed bumps along the way.

Check back tomorrow and hopefully I'll have All About Laila: 11 Months up. YES, that means my daughter is turning ONE in a a couple of weeks. Someone, please stop time, just for a little while. Pretty please?

My trip to Ohio

My trip to Ohio was amazing, I had a blast spending time with my sister and her fiance, Matt and a couple of her friends. But to say I was excited to come home is definitely an understatement. Because, well, I missed my daughter more than I ever thought I could.

I stayed home all day on Friday to spend as much time with Laila as I could. I just wanted to be with her before I had to leave. We cleaned, played, napped, danced, sang, did some more cleaning, Laila helped with laundry and by helped, I mean, Laila throwed the folded clothes around the living room. I even patiently waited for her early birthday present to show up. And alas, it did, 2 hours before I had to leave to head to the airport. Woohoo!

And look, here she is, sitting like a big girl in her chair, which was her early birthday present. She loves that chair. If anybody is wondering which one it is Harmony Kids Rocker in Light Pink Dot, they have other color options as well but Justin and I both agreed on this one. And it's sooo soft.
When it came time to heading to the airport, I got real nervous and sweaty. It's not that I'm afraid to fly because I love taking off and landing, I was just nervous to leave behind my daughter. And for a second, I even thought I was going to miss my flight because traffic on the way there was HORRIBLE. We drove for probably 20 minutes doing 20 mph. It sucked. By the time we got there, I said my cya laters and gave a ton of kisses. I was bummed Justin and Laila weren't able to come in and spend time with me before I headed to security but we didn't think there would be time. :[

I didn't cry when I said cya later. It wasn't until I was sitting at my gate when tears showed up. I was bummed and kind of regretted not bringing Laila with that time. But once I landed, my sister and Matt picked me up at the airport around 9ish and we had a late dinner and laughed our butts off watching Bridesmaids. Best movie ever.

Saturday was filled with dress shopping for us bridesmaids and that was stressful. The first place had nothing, except some complimentary water, and the second place was way too expensive. So we hit up Davids Bridal and we all found a dress, the same dress in the same color. It's a beautiful dress. After that stressfulness was over and done with, we hit up a Japanese Restaurant called Otanis for my sisters 26th birthday! YUM.

The rest of the evening was filled with way too many Vanilla Vodka + Pineapple juice, Irish Car Bombs, Jameson, Beer, and some other weird drink that I couldn't even name. A nightclub that made my heart feel like it was about to jump out, and late night drunk pizza. I wasn't expecting to drink as much as I did but it happened and it rarely happens. I almost NEVER have a drink in my hand. Last time I drank was my 21st birthday and that was almost 4 months ago, it's really just not my cup of tea and I definitely prefer to be sober. But overall, I had an amazing night, even if I don't remember even going to bed! *sigh*

And even though I stayed up till 3 am, my butt was up at 7 am. It's out of pure habit since Laila is an early riser. I had to take medicine, drink a ton of water, and force myself to go back to sleep. It was a rough morning but nothing french toast can't fix...until it makes you sick on the way to the airport and you have to shyly ask to stop somewhere to use the bathroom. TMI, so sorry.

And, I made it home in one piece and I was so excited to see Laila and Justin. Laila looked like she got bigger while I was gone...can that even happen??!!

It's so nice to be home with my little family but at the same time, I miss being with my sister and hanging out. Not to mention, it was soo nice to sleep in and have some freedom. Gosh, that makes me sound horrible.

&; sorry, I didn't take a single picture what I was gone. The only one I have is of my sister and I, drunk. Not to sure if I want to share that picture...

I'll be back a little later with my Day 8 of Thanks!

Nov 7, 2011

30 Days of Thanks: Days 1-7

November is a beautiful month. Filled with leaves falling over the trees, crisp air, delicious food and tons of much needed family time. November is also a special month because it's the month I welcomed my daughter into this world. The 30th, to be exact.

So I've decided to do write down everything I am thankful for, all in 30 days. And since this is a week late, I'll be writing 7 things I'm thankful for..

Day 1: My daughter, Laila Rayne. The most precious, beautiful, sweet, loving, joyful little girl. It's so hard to describe what she means to be because every time I try, a little tear trickles down my cheek. I never knew my heart could ever feel such an immense love for such a little child.

Day 2: My fiance, Justin. The one that's there to let me cry on his shoulder, who gives me strength, who knows exactly how to make me feel better, the man who makes, the one that doesn't care that I still act like a kid sometimes. My rock, my soul mate.

Day 3: My job. This may seem lame but I love my job, even though it's a desk job. Every one there is and has been so supportive through out the years that I've been there. Yes, I've had hard times there and yes, I've cried on more than one occasion. But, my job means a lot to me. My job (as well as Justin's) helps support my family. And that's very important to me.

Day 4: My mom and dad. These two are the best. I don't know where I would be without them, literally. They took me in when I was 5 years old because my biological parents couldn't take care of myself and siblings. The feed me and gave me clothes and most importantly, they loved me. I've had horrible horrible times with them and I've said some pretty hateful things but at the end of the day, they were the ones that still loved me and supported me. If they hadn't picked me, I don't know where I would to today and for that, I love them a ton.

Day 5: My best friend, Laura. I've known Laura since freshman year of high school, over 5+ years ago. She knows everything about me, I tell her my secrets and the things I'm too embarrassed to tell anyone else about. This girl is amazing, my best friend.

Day 6: My aunt, Sherry. I love my aunt, so so much. She has always been there for me, especially when I was having troubles with my parents. She bought a bed and would buy food for her house and let me stay there every Friday night to have time away from my parents. This was always a re-fresher and felt nice to get away for a little while, even if she lived right next door, lol. Now, we still hangout all the time. My Saturdays usually consist of Laila and I bumming around with her. It's always a great time, no matter what we do.

Day 7: My blog. I don't blog much, mainly because I just can't find the time. I have so much other stuff to do with my job, my home, my daughter, myself. And sometimes, I just don't want to feel like I have to blog. I blog because it's nice to jot down what we did over the weekend or a fun milestone that Laila did. But I definitely don't make my blog a priority and I'm honestly fine with that. But just knowing that I have a blog and can write what ever I want, makes me feel good.

So...there you have. Seven days of what I am thankful for. I'll be hopefully back every day to make a note of what I am thankful for. I've even thought of doing a "Thankful Jar" at the house. But who knows if Justin would be on board or even remember! Haha

What are you thankful for this November?

Nov 1, 2011

I'll be leaving but coming back..

 My heart is breaking at this very moment...

On Friday, I leave my daughter for the very first time and I'm having a hard time dealing with the fact that I won't be seeing her till Sunday and who knows what time. I won't be the one bathing her, putting her in her snuggly pajamas and reading her a bedtime story. I won't be able to give her a kiss and a hug, say sweet dreams and kiss her some more. I won't be able to listen to the sound of her fan and breathing over the monitor, the wonderful sound that I fall asleep to every night. I won't be able to sneak in her room and check on her in the middle of the night after a bathroom break. I won't be the one getting up with her, watch cartoons, eat breakfast and play. I won't be able to be with my baby till Sunday and I'm struggling with this.

Maybe I should get to the point of WHY I won't be seeing her. I'm going to Ohio to visit my sister, Leah. I'm stoked to see her since I don't see her that often but at the same time, my heart breaks because I've never been away from Laila...especially overnight.

Justin and I debated back and fourth on me taking her along but the end result was a no :[ I'm terrified to have her fly on a plane..I have this mindset that something is going to go wrong...I feel more comfortable with her staying home with her daddy. Plus, he really wants alone time with her.

I don't know how I'm going to make it...I'm going to cry while I wave bye bye to her :[ It's natural for me. Have I mentioned I cry, like a lot?? Especially lately...

I'm teaching Justin how to Skype before I leave, that's a must because I will NEED to see her somehow and what better way than Skype?! I wish leaving for a couple days would be easier but I just have to remember that I will be back and I'll get to see her smile and laugh all over again.

And of course, what's a post without a picture? Here she is. ALMOST one :]

Oct 30, 2011

Pumpkin Patch

Last week (or 2 weeks ago) Justin, Laila and I visited a local Pumpkin Patch. We went just to grab some pictures and watch Laila have a good time. We didn't need to buy any pumpkins this year because my parents grew there own and were kind enough to hand over three to us. So nice of them. Enjoy the over load of pictures :]

This day was overall AWESOME and Laila had a blast, which was the point of going. We did buy her a minature pumpkin, which she just wanted to eat.'s now being used for decoration. Haha. I can't wait to go there during winter and see the Christmas trees. I'm not into the real ones because the tend to give me hives. But it'll be awesome to see this place all decorated with Christmas decor. Ah, I cannot wait.

Oct 21, 2011


Photography never use to be a passion of mine, in fact, I never really cared to take a single picture. I'd snap photos here and there of random things going on in my life but didn't give photography a second thought.

Then I got pregnant, and then Laila was born, and oh my gosh, I knew I had to get a DSLR and capture every breath taking moment of my daughters life. I eventaully got one when she was maybe a month or two old.

My camera scared me, intrigued me, I wanted to learn more but at the same time, I was afraid to use it. What if I managed to break it, afterall, I am clumsy.

Anyways, there is always this huge huge part of me that wants to venture out with my camera and become something more, something greater with it. Maybe start a business? I always tell Justin, "I wish I could be a pro photographer and stay home"

I highly doubt I will ever get there because I am not that great! I try to read up but finding the time can be HARD. Ah, excuses are lame.

To help me learn, I started taking the Proud Photography Course. I originally saw it on (which is an awesome sight, thanks Sonya!) I wanted to learn more and I love anything online. Buuttttt, I am only on lesson 1 and I joined MONTHS ago, I just haven't had the time. But now, you bet your butt, I am going to get learning with that class. And so far, I do love it. The site it easy to use and it's very informative. I just have to stick to my plan and finish it, especially since I did pay for it!

Lets hope I can stick to this, because I have a love for photography. I want to capture those beautiful moments in my life, in others lives. I just need to start small and stick to my class, oh, and get out there and take pictures!!

**I was not paid or perked in any way to talk about the Proud Photograhy Course**

Oct 17, 2011

Body Issues

I'm in such a crappy mood with my weight. I hate the number I see on the scale, I hate the way my body looks. I feel unhealthy and disgusting. There is no such thing as confidence in my world, that all went out the window. And I don't blame it on pregnancy at all. It was my choice to eat the foods I did, to sit on my arse and be lazy.

Ya, I would diet and workout for a while but then all motivation disappeared. I was tired of working out and restricting myself. yada yada yada. But now, I regret it all because I feel like a big pile of mush. I have no self control, I don't know correctly, what's good and bad. Yes, eat veggies, fruits, and lean meats instead of sweets. I know that.

Currently, I have P90X, Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shread, and Jillian Michaels No More Trouble Zones.

Tell me, what are your favorite healthy recipes, workouts, tips, motivational stuff? I could use all the help.

Good thing Pinterest is amazing!

Here are some of my motivational pins

Source: None via Jessica on Pinterest

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I'm hoping I will have the strength, the courage, to actually get where I want to be.

All About Laila: 10 months!

Laila turned 10 months about 15 days ago and I am know just posting about. Bloggers block? I think so, I've had it for months, what can I say, I've been occupied...

Laila is growing up so quick, right before my eyes. Everyday she is learning something new, saying something new, and it just shocks me. I miss my little baby that slept in my arms all day, she needed me to do everything for her and now...she is so independent, she's her own little person. But, no matter what, she still needs me and no matter what, I'll always be there for her.

Laila is 19 pounds, we currently know this because we had to take her into the doctor for another cold, but this one was bad. She had a fever, double ear infection, runny nose, name it. You could tell she was just miserable because all she did was sleep and refuse to eat or drink. Laila is almost 100 % better. Woohoo! (Just this past weekend 10/15, Laila had another fever and spent most of her day sleeping on me, I have no idea what is going on!)

She is wearing anything from 6 months to 12 months, big girl! She can no longer fit into anything that is 3 months, which she could for a while. Still in size 3 diapers.

This month we had to switch Laila to formula because of supply issues and stress. *Sigh* Laila almost always refuses to drink the formula, she just isn't into it. We're able to get her to drink a 6 oz bottle in the morning and sometimes at night. During the day, she doesn't want it. She'll maybe drink 3 ounces throughout the whole day. I called my doctor, who told me to continue to try and get her to drink it and to keep her hydrated with water and continue with the solids.

Speaking of solids, Laila is a champ at eating. She eats anything in her sight, she doesn't care what it is, she'll try it. She loves bananas, waffles, those Gerber snack trays, noodles, apples/applesauce. Really, I can get her to eat anything. I hope this stays this way when she gets older. Oh ya, Laila has 8 teeth, 4 bottom 4 top.

Laila is constantly on the move. She'll crawl or push around her toys with her butt in the air. And my favorite of all of them...WALKING! My baby can walk. I was always scared for this day, because it just meant she was getting bigger and I was worried there would be more falls and boo-boos. She can't hold her balance the greatest yet, so she does tend to land on her butt or hands first.

Laila is still sleeping in her crib from night to morning. Bedtime is now around 7:30 sometimes 8, depending on her last nap. She wakes up around 6:30 and is completely ready for the day. Ever since we moved, she has started sleeping completely thru the night, but she has her flukes.

Laila's vocabulary is kind of picking up. She is still saying mom, dada, papa, baba, hi, bye, it sounds like she is saying doggy but it could be something totally different. It also sounds like she says shit...ugh, can she really pick that up at this young of an age? I definitely try to watch my language around her, just in case.

Laila is still in love with the dog, Mykenzie. They're BFF's - sort of - not really. Only in Laila's eyes.

Laila is not shy at all, she will smile and talk to you no matter what. She just loves to interact with other people, especially other kids. But no matter who you are, she'll talk to you.

Staring out the huge living room window
Waiting by the front door for daddy to come home
Wall scents (ah!)
Being tickled, mostly behing her ears, neck and armpits
Hide and seek
Laps around the house

Happy 10 months, Laila. Mommy and Daddy love you so much and can't wait to see you grow up some more!

I really suck at taking pictures lately :[ I will regret that.

Oct 4, 2011

saying goodbye

After much much debate, I have stopped pumping for Laila at the ten month mark. I have to say, the decision was SO hard for me. *tears*

I'm going to miss taking those short breaks at work to pump, I'm going to miss the closeness pumping gave me, I'm going to miss giving my daughter the best nutrients possible (breastfeeding is definitely NOT the only way to give your child the best nutrients possible though)

Why I stopped? The move definitely put a lot of stress on my supply and I just could not find the time to pump and having to deal with that for a couple of days, didn't help very much. I ran out of Domperidone, the BIGGEST reason I was even able to re-lactate and I did order some but it was just too late and my supply wasn't able to hold (I still haven't received that shipment of Domperidone, normally takes about 2 weeks to get) And honestly, I was tired of feeling like I spent more time with my pump, than with my daughter. But stress played a huge part in my decision and I suppose I have to be proud of myself for even re-lactating in the first place and pumping for over 8 months, but a part of me feels...shameful, guilty, so incredibly bad.

Overall, deciding to stop pumping, has been hard and very emotional for me, and I'm definitely still in the process of stopping. Hello engorement.

But who knows, maybe after a week or two, I'll decide I made a huge mistake and try to get my supply back...once again.

Sep 30, 2011

MyMemories Giveaway Winner!

Thank you all who participated in MyMemories Giveaway! And now, the best part...time to reveal the winner.

According to, Etosia, you are the WINNER!!!!!!!!! I'll e-mail you the details for your free software :]

Happy Friday, Everyone!

Sep 29, 2011

It's Official!!

Buying a home is stressful but such a happy happy time. Especially, since it's the home our child(ren) will grow up in, lets hope, because I never ever want to see that many trees wasted. Seriously, there is SO much paperwork involved in buying a home. And the packing only to unpack it, kind of sucks. Because now you have to find a place for all that stuff to go. But I'm so incredibly happy.

But, I'm glad we got the paperwork out of the way. Time to just unpack everything and I'm working today and tomorrow. I wish the weekend would come faster.

Here are some photos my mother took, from a cell phone. I definitely did not have time to take pictues, ya know, cause I was busy moving and dealing with a baby that was OVER-TIRED! Poor girl, too much commotion, she would not sleep.


Don't forget out the giveaway going on here. Winner is announced TOMORROW!!

Sep 26, 2011

packing away

We officially close on our house in TWO days. Woohoo!!! I am SO excited, Justin and I have been waiting for this day for a long time and it's finally here. And to be honest, we weren't sure we would be moving because we ran into some issues with our loan.

But we've been packing like c-r-a-z-y lately and I am so tired of it already. I just want to be done and into our home.

our kitchen yesterday, just a bunch of random items + boxes that got shoved into the basement for months/years.

all those darn boxes were in Laila's way of pushing around her toy, she didn't mind, she found joy in crashing into them.

this last picture has nothing to do with moving but who cares, Laila is too cute to not post a picture of and do you see her holding onto her extra paci? ya know, just in case her other falls out and she has another to save her day. that's my baby.

& don't forget about my GIVEAWAY going on HERE

Sep 23, 2011

MyMemories Giveaway!!

Happy Friday!!!!! I have something that I sure hope will make your day better. A GIVEAWAY!!

So without further ado, I introduce you to...

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If you don't know what MyMemories is, let me explain. It's a digital scrapbooking software that can be used to make calendars, cards, layouts, templates, you name it. This software has saved my life while trying to make my daughters 1st year book. Woohoo!!!

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Giveaway ends Thursday, September 29, 2011. I will annouce the winner Friday morning!


Sep 22, 2011

a to z about me

I've seen this on numerous blogs the past coulpe days, and since I suck suck suck at blogging, I thought I'd do this but it definitely doesn't make up for my lake of posts. Sorry!

A. Age: 21
B. Bed Size: Queen
C. Chore you hate: dishes dishes dishes
D. Dogs: Mykenzie, pittbull-boxer mix and yes, she is the sweetest dog I have ever met.
E. Essential start to your day: peeing, that's absolutely the first thing I have to do
F. Favorite Color: pink and blue
G. Gold or Silver: white gold or silver
H. Height: about 5'2"
I. Instruments you play: sadly, none but when I was in middle school I played the flute!
J. Job Title: sales & service assistant
K. Kids: Laila
L. Live: West Bend, WI
M. Mother's Name: Sally
N. Nicknames: Jessie, haha
O. Overnight hospital stays: first induction (failed) second induction (a baby was born)
P. Pet Peeves: dirty piles of clothes lying everywhere, shoes in the house
Q. Quote from a Movie: "Why can't you be happy for me, and then go home and talk about me behind my back like a normal person?" Bridesmaids.
R. Right handed or Left handed: right. i couldn't even attempt to right with my left.
S. Siblings: 1 older sister, 1 older brother,  3 younger brothers and 1 younger sister. I was adopted
T. Time to wake up: work days = 5am. weekends = 6:30 am. Laila likes it early.
U. Underwear: thongs, boy shorts, none (?) haha whatever is comfortable
V. Vegetables you hate: i hate almost all veggies.
W. What makes you run late: Laila or my non-determination to get ready
X. X-rays you have: teeth and elbow
Y. Yummy food that you make: I love to cook but I'm not the greatest, lol. But my stuffed pepers are pretty delicious.
Z. Zoo animals: i love me some giraffes.

Sep 13, 2011

Minnesota Wildfire

As you know or didn't know, I live in Wisconsin. And right now this is what is going on. So we're all hanging out inside the house away from the smell of smoke. Sure hope everything+all animals areA-OK in Minnesota!!!

Minnesota Wildfire Impacts Wisconsin Air Quality

MADISON, Wis. -- Some people in Wisconsin are smelling smoke from a wildfire in the Boundary Waters Canoe Area in Minnesota.

The fire started on Aug. 18 after a lightning strike. By Sunday, the fire had grown to about 4,500 acres. A lack of rain and unfavorable conditions have made fighting the fire difficult, according to the National Weather Service.

As of Tuesday, northwesterly winds starting bringing smoke into Wisconsin and some parts of northern Wisconsin have reported falling ash and reduced visibility due to the smoke, NWS officials said.

Satellite images show the plume of smoke heading over Lake Superior on Sunday. The winds on Tuesday have pushed that smoke south, officials said.

The smoke could affect air quality over the next few days. The elderly, children and those with respiratory or cardiac problems are advised to take care.

The U.S. Forest Service said the Pagami Creek forest fire near Ely, Minn., has more than tripled in size since Sunday and has grown to cover more than 16,000 acres.


Sleep was always a touchy subject for us. I got tired of hearing all these new parents brag about their 1 month old sleeping thru the night. I desperately missed sleep and was getting more irratated and felt unlucky. Selfish of me, right?

But now that my daughter is 9 1/2 months old, things are 100% better. She doesn't need a bottle to go to bed, she doesn't need her swing, or to be held and cuddled, she doesn't need her pacifier, she doens't need to sleep in our room.

Before, she needed all that and sometimes more. We would give her a bath, read a story or play with a couple toys, give her her bottle and swing her to sleep. It worked perfectly, but I think we were forcing her to go to bed when she wasn't completely ready, which could have been the reasoning for her always waking up in the middle of the night. Or maybe we weren't keeping her active enough. But, I could be completely wrong. Those babies work in mysterious ways.

And now, things are amazing. She no longer is in our room and this was the toughest part for me, not waking up 4+ times in the middle of the night. I hated not having her right there in her pack n play or in our bed. But, I think the noise in our room was affecting her sleep, in a poor way. So, after much much talking, we decided to move her to her own room. And this has been the best decision, for ourselves and Laila. She sleeps much more peacefully and longer (which is a plus) and most nights, she doesn't wake up in the middle of the night. But, for the first couple of days, she was waking up 4+ times a night. I wouldn't pick her up, I would lay her on her back, rub her forehead and sing her a lullaby. 10 seconds later, she was out. This was repeated numerous times a night and eventually she got the hang of it.

Last night, on our way home from grocery shopping, she feel asleep. I had to wake her up because she desperately needed a bath. So, I got her bath all ready, took her out of the carseat, undressed her and sat her in the tub. She looked at me like I was nuts for waking her up. Which I was, but my baby was dirrtttyyy. Bath ended, Laila was dressed and in her crib she went. No crying, no paci. Nothing. She just went to sleep. She's able to put herself to sleep now and most of the time, she doesn't even cry. She coos. So adorable.

So, all in all. Sleep is going great with Laila and myself. But, I'm a little nervous to see if this will continue once we move into our new 2 weeks!!!

Sep 1, 2011

All About Laila: 8 Months

Holy moly! I have a 9 month old!! Times sure flies and I have to say, I wish it would just slow down. Here is everything to know about my darling at 8 months. And this month has been amazing.

Weighing in at 17 pounds but still wears a lot of 3-6 and 6 month clothes as well 9 months. Size 3 diapers.

Still eating 6 ounces every 3 hours...sometimes longer depending on when she takes her nap(s)

Absolutley loves to feed herself and will eat anything that's in site. The list of food that she has tried in the last month is outrageous.

Normally sleeping through the night (bed at 8:30 up by 6:30) w/ 2 naps during the same (most of the time)

Bath time is around 7:30 followed by a massage, some playtime, books and then in the swing she goes with a bottle. And at first, we never did mind the whole bath/bottle/swing thing goin' on but now we are kind of wishing she wouldn't need the swing/bottle to fall asleep. And don't get me wrong, she will fall asleep without a bottle but it is rare. And we can never just put her down in her crib while drowsy, she'll scream until you pick her up.

She is back to sleeping in our room in her pack n play and we have actually decided that we'll be doing this for a year but you never know, that could change, especially now that she will have a nice large room.

She has 7 teeth. 3 on bottom and 4 on the top. My little chomper and those suckers are sharp. No wonder she no longer wants to chew on her own hands/feet but if you let her chew on yours, she has no problem. haha

Can say "mama" "dada" "papa" "hi" "bye" "baba". She can sign up and more

She is crawling extremely fast, like "where did my baby just go" fast. It's incredible how quickly she moves. Definitely enjoys cruising around on furniture.

When she hears daddy come in the door, she immediately crawls from the living room all the way to the entry way, super fast, making a very weird "I just ran a mile" pant. Adorable

She is so so very in love with our dog, Mykenzie and will always look for her while she's eating. I think she secretly gives the dog food she doesn't like. If Mykenzie is on the floor, Laila will crawl up to her and pet  hit her, we still have to teach her how to be gentle.

She knows what "no" means and sometimes chooses to ignore it, other times, she'll stop doing whatever you say no too. Like playing with outlets, cords, dog food, computers, etc.

She is currently getting over a very nasty cough/cold and has been on Amoxicillin for a couple days now. This is the first time that we've ever had to go to the doctors to get medication. Other times, she was better within a day or two. But this one seems to be lingering forever.

Her favorite book at the moment is "A Wocket in my Pocket" She loves her toy cell phone (but still prefers mine), loves her Leap Frog Learn & Grove Table. Best thing ever.

She just started this...but...she can go from a sitting position to a standing position!!! Although, she falls down in a couple seconds but's pretty amazing!!
Loves playing peek-a-boo, it's become one of her new favorite games
Loves swinging
Addicted to her pacifier
Loves sippy cups (although we are trying to transition her to a new one but she just won't give up her current Nuk one)
Will help with pulling out all the clean, folded laundry
Is not as shy as she use to be and isn't as afraid of strangers
Loves going for walks
Addicted to goldfish and puffs
She has a beautiful smile and a beautiful personality
Is way too smart
Does belly flops in the bath tub (and has never pooped in the tub) :]
Enjoys playing with every objec that is not a toy

Aug 18, 2011


I don't know what's going on with me...I just can't get out of this bloggers funk that I've been in for a month or more.

I just don't want to blog...I'd rather be doing something outside or with my daughter and then when she is off to bed, I have other things to do. Dishes, laundry, packing for the next day. Ya know...household chores.

And I'm stressed. Beyond stessed.

And there have been a lot of bigger changes in our lives. I turned 21 on August 8th, Justin and I got engaged *big smile* and we are in the process of becoming homeowners. Wish us luck!

And then there is Laila, who is the most amazing baby ever but times have been tough with her. She has 5 teeth (2 on bottom 3 on top) All her top ones came in almost at the same time. So I'm dealing with a very cranky, teething baby. And I feel SO bad for not being able to take the pain away. Nothing seems to least not for that long. And all the sudden she doesn't want to sleep anywhere but in bed with us or in her swing. I can't even set her in her pack n play without her waking up and screaming her head off.

It's rough and somedays I just want to pull my hair out.

Anyways, what's a post without pictures?

And since I take more photos from my are some of those.
*taking a nap at she sleeps thru the noise, I have no clue.
*reading her favorite Dr. Seuss book "There's a Wocket in my Pocket"
*playing with her ears during meal time
*standing while barely holding onto anything

P.S. this little girl weighs 17 pounds

Aug 12, 2011

my daughter

Hi! It's been a while since I've taken a nice picture of my daughter and I feel totally guilty about that.

I am know photography but having these photos just reminds me of a great time we had!! 

Here she is. 

My beautiful 8 month old.

friday fill in the blank v.1

1. My most favorite birthday was my 21st birthday that was just celebrated on Sunday. Woop Woop. I didn't have a single drink because well, I was feeling a little hungover from drinking Saturday night. Even though Laila had me up at 6 am, It was great. My mom took Laila to church and watcher her the whole day. Justin and I went out for some delicious breakfast, relaxed and watched movies. We even took a nap before Laila came back home, which was nice but I missed her. The home felt...empty. The worst part was having to DUMP my milk. Shame on me.
2. My worst birthday was...I can't actually recall having a bad birthday..
3. My favorite birthday memory is eating almost all of Justin's ice cream cake...I was pregnant...and desperately needed ice cream cake.
4. The best birthday present I've ever received was I'm actually not sure. I usually love all of my gifts.
5. The best birthday present I've ever given was MY LOVE. Aw, so lame but I'm not the best present giver.
6. Birthdays are memorable and exciting. But I've never been big on celebrating MY birthday. I hate to be the center of attention. But I love celebrating others birthdays

7. My favorite age so far has been 21. And not because I can legally drink but It feels more adult-ish to me.

Aug 10, 2011

wee bit wednesday v.7

{one} what was one thing that you valued when you were a kid?
This is honestly tough for me because my childhood was rough. I was adopted and dealt with a ton of emotion that goes along with that. But I valued ALL the family members I had because there sure are a lot of them.

{two} what was your favorite (+ lease favorite) subject in school?
Favorite class was Psychology and least favorite class was history.

{three} do you remember your first love?
I sure do. Oh high school

{four} what one pet would you love to have?
A giraffe, love those things.

{five} would you rather live in the country or in the city?
I'm undecided. There are things I love about the city and yet hate and then there are things I love about the country and hate as well. It's a tough decision.

{six} what do you love about blogging?
It's MY place. That's what I love..sorry I've been MIA. I have things going on in life and I'm just trying to soak everything up.

{seven} what is the first website you visit everyday?
Usually my e-mail

{eight} will you or have you joined google+?
I don't even know what google+ is...

{nine} what is your favorite scent of candle/air freshener?
During the winter, I love mint chocolate. During the fall, I love the smell of pumpkins or apples. During the summer/spring months, I'm good with my eucalyptus mint.

{ten} how would you describe your style?
Casual. I'm a jeans and t-shirt kind of gal.

Aug 1, 2011

All About Laila: 7 Months!

Woo hoo. I can definitely say month 7 of Laila's life was amazing!! I can't believe that she is already 8 months, I'm sure this month will be even better..

All About Laila: 7 Beautiful Months! 

Laila is still a little peanut weighing in at __ pounds ___ inches. I'll update this once I find out.

She can still fit into some of her size 3 clothes but is mostly wearing size 6's. We've moved her on up to size 3 diapers because we were having too many blow-out issues. And you all know those are gross. Haha. We've also decided to stop using Pampers Swaddlers and started using Pampers Cruisers and so far, they're amazing. I've had no issues and no complaints.

She sits, she crawls, she pulls her self up. And she just started doing the official crawling a week after turning 7 months. She is definitely on the go, anywhere and everywhere. Her favorite place to crawl and hang out seems to be the kitchen...not sure why but I find it gross because her legs and feet get disgustingly dirty..Yes, we clean our floors but they are SO damaged. Guess that's what we get for living in a old house.
I've walked in on her standing in her crib numerous times, she even manages to do it in the middle of the night. This terrifies me, I'm just worried she'll hurt herself. She also pulled herself up holding onto our coffee table and all I could see was her nose and up. That girl definitely has some muscles.

This month she has been on and off sleeping thru the night. It seem she sleeps longer stretches when she is in our room. I wonder if this has to do with the temperature difference. Our room = nice and cool. Her room = not so much. Another downside of living in a old house, no central AC.

If she isn't sleeping thru the night, she's waking up once to eat and goes right back to sleep...most of the time. Sometimes, she stays awake for a couple minutes talking to her pacifier and pulling your hair {if she's in bed with us} She's also, most of the time, waking up another time, I think just out of habit.
We've also transitioned her to her crib..sort of. It's an on and off battle. But we're working on it.

Laila loves to eat food and gets so jealous when she sees someone eat or drink. We have learned not to give her "Mixed Veggies" from Beech Nut. It makes her throw up a ton on and off all evening. Must be the carrots because we've had the same issue with just carrots alone. She finally loved the Chiquita Bananas by Beech Nut. Delicious.

This month she has also tried real bananas mashed up and cut into little pieces, raspberries, strawberries, goldfish, fig newtons and green beans. The only thing she wasn't a fan of was the raspberries. She also has tried strawberry and banana Gerber Yogurt. She enjoyed the banana but couldn't stop gagging with the strawberry. She also loves pumpkin muffins! That girl has her fathers taste buds, which I am so thankful of.

She is still a total water baby. Doesn't matter what type of water she's in, she's lovin' it. I've bought her a whale pool from Tar-Jay and I can't wait to have her try it out. As for baths, we're experimenting without using the baby bathtub. So far, it's going pretty good but it's time for us to get new grippers and a faucet cover. Safety first!

Speaking of safety first, it's time for us to baby proof our house now that we have a mobile baby. And there is something about baby proofing that scares me. Maybe because it really means my baby is mobile and no longer just lies there playing. Oy.

Her new work is... mama and boy, is it a beautiful word to hear. I have been waiting for the day and she just started saying mama a couple days ago. She is still a total daddy's girl, which I don't mind.

She is an outside baby, all the way
Does amazing playing all by herself in her room
Loves her jumbo Lego's
Has a huge fascination with cords {not good}
Hates her bottle and only gets in in the mornings and nights
Loves to climb all over you
Loves grass
Has a huge love for animals, especially Mykenzie
Will eat anything you give her, she has her daddy's taste buds
Still uses her swing for night time
Goes searching for things when they go missing

7 months has been amazing and I am so excited for my baby to be 8 months!

Jul 21, 2011

i am beautiful

Christa over at Young & Restless is doing a link-up. We have to write about the things we love about ourselves instead of the negative. And her post really hit me hard because I've struggled with my weight for years and to this day, I still struggle and can't help but criticize every thing about me. But, it's time to stop that and be proud of what I look like {even if I have a thunder thighs, cellulite, armpit/boob fat} We really need to love who we are. So this link-up is amazing!

young and restless

now on to the things I love about myself...

I love my eyes, I find them absolutely gorgeous

Weird one...but I love my feet

I love my smile, always have always will

Along with my smile, I love my teeth! I just wish they were whiter.

Most days I love my hair but there are some days that I absolutely hate it. We can't always have good hair days.

I love my drive to succeed and be successful.

I love the child that is still in me, growing up sometimes suck.

I love my ability to love people and how much I can truly love someone, like my daughter. I've never known a love so strong.

I love my laugh and the little snort that makes it's way out every once in a while.

I know that there are other things out there that I do love about myself, I'm just having a hard time with this...because I'm so use to being a downer about myself and a lot of it has to do with image than personality.

please do link-up!

Jul 20, 2011

wee bit wednesday v.6

{one} what is your dream job?
I have two dream jobs. One, being Self-Employed doing Photography. Two, a Criminologist {think CSI or Criminal Minds}

{two} how many best friends do you have?
I have one best friend, Laura.

{three} what’s the longest road trip you’ve ever taken?
Driving to Florida from Wisconsin...

{four} if you had to do one single thing every day for the next year, what would it be?
Definitely work out. haha

{five} what’s one story your family always tells about you?
I was younger, maybe 8? and I wanted to take my hair out of it's pony tail but struggled to get the hair band out. I went out to ask my mom who was busy and said no. I decided to take matters into my own hand and tail. I had to have a boy hair cut. It was horrible. I even hid my cut off hair under some they wouldn't notice it was missing from my head.

{six} how did your parents pick your name?
I'm adopted so I don't know why they picked out Jessica. Either way, I've come to love it.

{seven} what’s the one thing that scares you more than anything?
Losing my daughter.

{eight} are you a good cook?
At times I am, but I alse eff up a lot. Practice makes perfect. Last night I made these babies.

red peppers stuffed with italian breakfast sausage (we had no other meat) tamato sauce, garlic powder, salt/pepper, italian seasoning and parmesan cheese. It was delicious.

{nine} where do you see yourself in 20 years?
Married with another kiddo living in a beautiful or run down house. Either way, I know I'll be happy.

{ten} what’s your best childhood memory?
Swimming in the lake that my parents live on with my child hood best friend. Those were the days.