Friday Confessional

*I spent way too much money this week...all camera related

*I was irritated at Justin for being the only one to calm Laila down. I just really wanted her to want to be held by me

*I am so sick of the place where we live. No a/c, the heating sucks, it's small and cramped

*So I'm coming up with any and every excuse to move

*I hate taking the time to shave my legs

*I'm also OCD about it and have to have them shaved perfectly

*I wish Laila would sleep in on the weekends instead of waking up at 6 am

*Pumping all.the.time is exhausting and it's getting old

*BUT, there is NO WAY I am stopping now {I plan on going for a year}

*I was such a baby when I went in to have Implanon inserted

*I can't believe it took me 3.5 months to even get birth control

*Justin and I had a pregnancy scare. oh.my.gawd.

Monday Confessional

I missed Friday Confessions so I decided to switch it up and do Monday Confessions instead.

I'll keep it short but not so sweet.

*I decided to go on a diet and have already failed by eating cookies for breakfast {as well as oatmeal and a bananer} Those darn Girl Scout cookies!

*TMI ALERT - I'm starting to think sex will never be the same and this seriously upsets me.

*TMI ALERT - Since I've been eating a ton of fruit, I've had no issues going to the bathroom.

*I hate our couch and can't wait to spend more money to get a new one. After we sell our old one first, which we're in the process of doing right now.

*I want to be a SAHM, soooo freakin' bad.

*I totally just sang that last part out...I wanna be a billionaire soooo freakin' bad

Friday Confessional

It's Friday again. Which meannnss...Friday Confessions! Woot Woot.

Not that I have a lot to confess or anything juicy.

*Remember in my last Friday Confessions I confessed I hadn't shaved my legs in weeks. Well, I still haven't shaved them.

*I won't drive anywhere unfamilar. It terrifies me and I have a panic attack while driving. I have to get over this if I want to go places besides West Bend, Jackson, Slinger, Menomonee Falls, Germantown or Hartford.

*I can't stand seeing myself naked. For reallss...I'm disgusted.

*I've been having horrible thoughts while driving alone with Laila at night. I constantly have this feeling that something scary is going to happen to the both of us.  Like get hit by a car or stranded on the side of the road.

*My heart breaks everyday when I have to drop Laila off at the sitters or my moms. I just want to cry. I should not be leaving my daughter at such a young ago but Justin and I need two incomes.

*I've been wearing the same jeans almost everyday. I just can't fit into anything else.

*AND when I wash those ones, I have to wear my maternity jeans. Soo sad.

*Pumping every 2 hours = Break time from work = HEAVEN!

*I have a sick obsession with lotions, sprays, undies bras and fuzzy socks. You can never have too many.

*I hate hate hate formula. The smell of it almost made me puke the other day.

*Still no birth control ... or condoms. Not a good idea.

*I've been pumping about 8 ounces a day for Laila. That's 2 bottles and she has anywhere between 6-8 bottles. I wish this process would just hurry up but I need to be patient. Some days I feel like a failure though, but I have no intentions to stop pumping or trying to get Laila to latch.

*I was prescribed anti-depressants but haven't taken them. And ever since I started re-lactating, I've been much happier. It's amazing.

That's all for now, Folks!

Friday Confessional

I thought I would join in on Friday Confessional. After all, there are some things I need to get off of my chest.

*I was going to start doing Friday Confessional's a couple weeks ago. But I was lazy and tired and didn't feel like it.

*I haven't shaved my legs in .. er .. a couple weeks.

*I hate getting my picture taken because I swear the camera makes my face look FAT.

*I can't stand being home alone. In the dark. It scares the crap out of me.

*I hate the way I walk, something about it is just funny to me...

*I wish I had bigger boobs {and I'm already a 40D} what is wrong with me??

*I'm seriously considering getting a tummy tuck..and some lipo..and a boob job..and..that's it.

*I want to lose fifty pounds. woah.

*Will I ever reach that, probably not because I never work out. That's why I'm desperate for warm weather. That way I can take Laila for walks.

*I watch way too much reality TV. Justin hates this.

*I let my child watch Transformers and she is only two months old.

*At time, I hate being an adult. There are so many responsibilities that came along with it. Sometimes, I wish I were a kid again.

*I'm still not on BIRTH CONTROL. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?????

*I want to experience child birth, again.

*My co-worker is pregnant (37 weeks) and she just swears it's a girl.... I secretly wish that she has a boy. I'm awful.

*I'm constantly twirling my nose ring..

*Pregnancy left me with bladder issues...Gross {no, I do not pee my pants}

*I'm so freaking sick of snow. I just want it to end.

*My car needs serious work done to it but instead of spending money on that, I would rather spend it on things I don't need. Like magnets...

*Laila sleeps in bed with Justin and I *GASP*

*I confess...that wasn't too bad.

Do you have any confessions?