Nov 21, 2010

30 Days of Truth Day 8

I've been such a slacker with my 30 Days of Truth 

Day 8
Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

I will admit, that person would be ME. I made my life hell, I treated myself like complete shit.
I didn't see the point of life...of MY life. I tried giving up numerous times but here I am today. I never wanted to get out of bed to visit friends. I never wanted to eat. I didn't want to smile or laugh or have hope for the next day. I stopped doing things that I was completely in love with. I wanted to be alone all the time, to sleep and curl up in a little ball.
I took out my frustration and hurt on my body. I said goodbye to all my old loves in life and my new favorite items in life were  sweatshirts 2 sizes too big, alcohol, anything sharp and drugs. I did anything to try and make the pain go away. I felt like there was no hope. I didn't want to live and I felt everyone would be better of without me. I gave up on MY life.
But here I am today, completely in love with life and what God has given me. I look back and seriously wonder what the heckers was wrong with me?? WHY did I do that stuff?? 
I'm not proud of my past, I'm completely ashamed and embarrassed but I don't sit here and regret anything because I've grown up a lot and with growing up, comes learning a lot. And I have definitely learned a lot. I've found a new appreciation in life and look forward to everyday. I thank GOD for giving me a 2nd chance.

Day 1. Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a play list to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

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